What is in a touch?

Touch is something we all take for granted. Have you ever looked into someones eyes and wanted to reach out and touch them? Have you ever found that impossible? Sometimes there is barriers between us, weather they are physical or just social those barriers are huge. They allow us to distance ourselves further and they strain our relationships.
Sometimes we put those barriers us ourselves, we want that distance because we don't want to get that close; we don't want to be that vulnerable. Other times, those barriers are placed by someone else, either because we aren't suppose to, or because we physically can't.
Some people in our lives are so close, yet so far away.


I can sit less than a few feet away from you.
I want so bad to touch you.
To just feel the warmth of your touch.
To hold you close and reassure you,
Everything will be just fine.
We will get there,
And most of all,
We will be stronger for it.
I love you,
I dread coming to see you,
Because it isn't close enough,
But it is totally worth it to be in your presence.
To be able to see your face,
To hear your voice.
And to be able to talk to you,
For more than three or four minutes.

I love you

You make me feel amazing,
you make me feel beautiful,
you make me feel perfect.

Some days I fear I will disappoint you,
Yet I never seem to do so,
you always make me feel irreplaceable.

Right now, this seems difficult,
Yet I wake up thinking about you,
and a smile creeps across my face.

I roll out of bed and get dressed,
I smile when I look in the mirror,
I know you'd say I look beautiful.

I go on with my daily life,
thinking about you,
and missing you.

Before I go to bed, I scribble you a letter,
and make sure to reassure you,
that I am all yours baby.

I whisper goodnight to you,
and tell you that I love you,
I know you feel it.

We will get through this my love,
we have gotten through so much already,
we are perfect for one another.

I hope I do the same for you,
we both know we live separate lives,
somehow when they mesh together we have perfection.

I love being wrapped in your arms,
when nothing is off limits,
and we can be totally honest and ourselves.

You amaze me sweetie. I love you more than I ever thought was possible.

Writing, and what becomes of it

It feels so strange to not be able to talk to you, I don't like it, but I will live.

It took a while for us to be friends,

It took months for you to break my heart,

It took years for us to grow apart,

A few weeks to reconnect,

It took only one night for us to fall in love. 

God has a plan for us all, some bad things need to happen to make us better people; we just need to embrace every day we are given and make the best of it.

And when I lay down at night, I wish it were you I was cuddling with, this monkey just doesn't cut it. 

Someday's it is hard to remember I am not alone in this world - then I get a simple message from you.

Our relationship came out of no where, but rest assured it also isn't going anywhere. 

Friends and Change

Lately I have been slightly confused by friends of mine, but I also have taken some time to think about how wonderful of friends some people are.  I feel as though friendships like most relationships are sometimes meant to crumble to fall apart and be done and over with, we all change slightly over time, we aren't who we are when we were 13, so how is it some friendships can last throughout eternity? This has been something I have been flip flopping in my brain, 

Everyone has different opinions on different things, one thing can ruin a relationship, of a romantic or friendship sort. I have experienced just this lately. Over the last few years I seem to have changed who I am a lot more than most people who are around me, my interests have changed, what makes me happy has changed and what infuriates me has changed.  If you talk to me at all, you might know that politics and the world news is huge to me, a few years ago I wouldn't have cared. However, as circumstances in our lives change we change with them, we grow from our experiences. 

An amazing friend last night told me that he didn't see it, but everyone had told him he had changed. Changes happen without us knowing, but if we could look though someone else's eyes we would see the amount of things we have changed in ourselves.  For example the military related news is huge to me, because it affects me. Education changes are huge because they affect me. Unfortunately I don't know that we have the ability to change our mindsets on anything until it is personal. 

 Some friendships cannot survive these minor everyday changes, sometimes the changes two people make send them in opposite directions. However, you don't need to be like someone to be their friend, you just need to be compatible. Sometimes, you polar opposite is the person who is your best friend and thats exactly who my best friend is to me. There are things in our experiences that could have totally destroyed our relationship with one another, starting with bad choices and ranging to just distance and losing touch sometimes. But your polar opposite can make a great friend when they cause you to loosen up and relax, and you cause them to take stuff seriously. 

Are some relationships invincible? I think so, I know of plenty of things my best friend has done wrong; that I don't approve of, and that hurt me, yet he is forever there for me. Even if its on the other side of the world, and he is a day ahead of me sleeping away tomorrow while I am trying to get through today, he still makes a point to be a friend, and a dang good one at that; one I can talk to and be crying and have the biggest smile on my face when we have to part. 

Soon we will meet again, for now, forever in one another's hearts.