I have a very biting attitude tonight. I feel like I am annoyed with the world, as well as, myself. I realize this world we live in is chaotic and sometimes flat out horrible. I know that somewhere there is good in everyone. I am usually one of the few willing to try to find it. But there are some people, whom I really cannot lately.
I don't care if you don't like me; but if you don't - don't pretend to to my face and run your mouth about me behind my back. It is just annoying. If there is a reason you must rant about someone you don't like, you do it to someone close to you and then drop it, they shouldn't be the only thing you talk about.
It saddens me a bit that I will be bringing my child into this world that right now, doesn't have a whole lot going for it. I am ashamed of peoples attitudes I should be able to depend on.
It is said you have two families in the world, the one you are born into and the one you claim. I guess my family is a combination of both, and they stretch across the continents. When I need something, or at least someone to talk to I don't even think about calling them even if it's three am. I am saddened by the fact there are people I used to be this close to; who now, although they still pretend to be my friend, never have anything to say behind my back.
First, what I will or will not do with my baby, and my family, is up to me. Sorry, as much as you want to add in your advice it is my decision. I plan on finishing school for the sake of having something in the future; for the ability to provide for myself, and most importantly it is something I need to do for myself. I don't mean that in a selfish way, I mean that I am almost done, and there is no reason to give up now. If you don't approve, keep it to yourself.
Second, I have no need at this moment to run out and get married to impress anyone. Oh yeah it looks really bad - the divorce rate is like 60%; does it matter if I just decide not to rush into it just because I am expecting? Really, I don't think it matters.
Third, it is okay to ask for help, and at some point we have all needed to do so. The problem is when you become dependent on that help. Thankfully, I have people in my life who are willing to give me that help. Asking for help doesn't make you weak, it means you are willing to admit when you need help. Nothing more.
We are all fighting our own battles, before you open you mouth; think for a minute before you judge.
