The news scares me.

'2 killed as big aftershock rattles disaster-weary Japan' on Fluent News. Here is the link: http://fluentnews.com/s/26639863

The news scares the shit out of me sometimes. Schools are shutting down in South Korea because of radiation fears, and yet another "aftershock" earthquake.. which would have been at about 10:30 ( EST ) this morning it was 11:30 last night there, I am slightly relieved only two people got killed. Yet I feel bad for thinking that.  Things seem to hit closer and closer to home.
I love being up to date, yet I hate with all my heart reading the news sometimes. Its depressing and it is scary as hell.

This carries a very common theme to yesterdays,
... rejoice for the people who walked from the rubble and pray for those who don't know...

I'm going to bed with tears in my eyes, for those who fight for their lives, whether it is to live through every day or whether they are trying to help someone else do the same.  I wish the best for all of the world. I worry for those who are close to me, and I have sympathy for those I have never met.
Our worlds in need of some hope, and if your more religious than I maybe a whole lot of prayers.
Some days I feel I need to pray and I'm not even religious. Tonights one of those days.

I am a country fan, I have a huge variety in my tastes in music, so Itunes goes on shuffle and whatever plays plays part of the time I have no idea whats playing the other part of the time I am singing along to whatever comes on. I have about 11,000 songs, I like change. This song just came on, and I know every word to it, but its meaning has changed over the years. 
When 9/11 happened and "the world stopped turning," I was in 5th grade I don't know where I was exactly when it happened I know that everyone was acting strange and before lunch we got sat down and told that something terrible had happened and they had crashed a plane into a building and another somewhere else. At the time it was shock I don't remember even having a reaction. I remember my parents just watching the television when we got home and my parents eventually turning it off and telling us we weren't allowed to watch tv after a while because all there was on every channel was the towers crashing.  
Now, I understand more than I did then for sure, I am now a sophmore in college and my biggest fears include who is going to end up in one of the countries we are currently in, I have friends in the military and my brothers in the Marines, which one of the people who is close to me is going to end up where next? I never seem to know and neither do they.  So, I wish I still had the innocence I did in 5th grade, where I had no idea what was even going on, I never knew it would affect who I am as a person so much.
I felt the need to write this when the song came on, so I looked it up on youtube to share with you all. Well, I am truly saddened by what freedom of speech has come to mean in todays society.  But that is a discussion for another day, for now I shall smile and be thankful for my heroes. 

Thank you to all of those serving, and making a difference in the world. Even if you are complaining you are bored sitting on base, I would still rather you be there, and yes I understand it is boring!